Well at least for this month. I hate to sound silly, but I think my thermometer is broken!! It always reads me the same temp as the day before the first time I use it. For example, lets say Monday’s temp is 98.34. Tuesday morning when I wake up, I turn it on, see the 98.34, then 98.60, then it says Lo, I insert it….time passes, a few beeps are emitted and I look at the temp and it says 98.34. So, knowing that was yesterdays temp, I turn it on and off, redo the whole process and then get 98.27. Now, Wednesday morning I do the same thing, and the first attempt at temping yields me 98.27. See where this is going? I have a back-up thermometer (Crazy huh?) and that one is so far off from the one I use daily that I just decided that it would be easier to not temp. I mean, I am 13 DPO so I really dont think it is going to matter. Either tomorrow AF will rear her ugly head or she wont!
Also, I did not enter Saturday’s temperature because it removed the crosshairs. If I tune it to “research” they reappear, but its easier to just not temp for the next few days. Yesterday I had quite a few symptoms, but again, I am not even going to think about it. Today The One and I are going to be putting up our Christmas tree. I was thinking about the ornaments that we got last year, all of the sentimental ones. I remembered that I had gotten a little angel girl that said “Believe” and she was holding a shooting star. I remember buying it, right after I had miscarried. Thinking that there would not be another year that I would hang that sadly, and this year we would certainly be hanging either “Baby’s First Christmas” or something similar. While I am obviously not, the sadness I thought I would feel in mitigated by the fact that while we TTC really for four to seven days a month, every single day, every second of every day, the love that we have for each other is so strong that I just have to be grateful for what we have. The rest will come, or maybe not, but I just have to embrace the now, live it, enjoy it.
I am tired and emotional….but Happy Holidays and baby dust to you all! xo