I am a very smart woman. My education and professional resume are quite impressive. So why is it that when it comes to TTC, I am totally insane? Irrational even. In my defense, it is not all my fault. These symptoms are enough to make you crazy….I was tired all day, and took a nap that lasted several hours! The eggs this morning turned my stomach, and I was nauseous most of the morning. Before, I went to the bathroom. (Ok, this is TMI) I never can smell my own urine. Today, I did…and I skeeve things like that so it made me feel icky again. My boobs hurt now. The One is making us dinner tonight, and the only thing I know is that I MUST HAVE MARINARA SAUCE….He can put it on mashed potatoes for all I care, I just need it.
But the one thing that has me scratching my head…I am 10DPO, and it is in the evening, so I am close to 11 DPO. I have ZERO signs or symptoms of AF. Normally I pms. I have cramps for sure, but now? Nothing! So of course I am thinking everything over, rechecking our chart, etc. We have a high score on our intercouse analyzer…but as I said earlier that could mean nothing. It could mean everything.
My point is, now I am analyzing every symptom, every feeling. My logic is gone, and I always tell myself if I read everything or read nothing, it is not going to change what IS. Even temping at this point is only for me. What is done is done, yet I am so obsessed with this month I am going insane. Insane enough to break my cardinal rule. I may POAS!! I never do, I much prefer to go to the Dr. and have blood work done, to avoid any potential ambiguity (Faint lines, evap lines, etc). But I just really have the weirdest feeling this month.
I guess I will keep you posted!!